Morning cyberspacers, I'm not in such a mood this morning to greet you all with "Good morning.".
Resolving to be less critical of myself isn't working so well thus far. Last night I was up past midnight doing homework, which I still didn't quite finish. Around 11 I realized that I hadn't made a lunch for today. My mother said she would do it for me in the morning. However, due to how slow she was moving this morning, and a serious addiction to the Word Challenge application on Facebook, I missed my first bus, the bus I usually have to take to get to school on time. I have a serious problem with being late to places. I'm honestly not sure why. It just causes me a large amount of anxiety. This morning was no different. In the layover time in between my on time bus and my late bus I began freaking out about being late for school. I hate that I let these actions cause me a major amount stressful anxiety, I should be able to control my thoughts on a situation more peacefully than what I tend to do when encounter these situations. I'm horrendously tired this morning due to the lack of sleep, and not in the greatest mood either caused by the fact that a rather large percentage of my clothing is dirty, including many things that I really would have liked to be able to wear today. I really need to do laundry... Only there are no quarters in my house for the washing machines...
My god, my thought process isn't linear at all this morning. I'm sorry for being this scatter brained, I'd much rather prefer to be functioning this morning at a higher compacity this morning than I am right now. I hope by this afternoon that I am functioning at a higher rate than I am right now. I almost just spelled right wrong, oh god I don't use chatspeak, why is my brain functioning like this! It's taken me the same amount of time to write somewhere around half or maybe two thirds of what I write usually. This is seriously not pleasing. I'm not happy with this.
In addition to working on being less critical of myself, I'd really like to post on here more often. My posts will end up being a mix of these usual posts of ramblings in the morning and the occasional memoirs that enter my mind. Such as tomorrow I will probably write about snow cones. I have a lot of entertaining experiences that include snow cones in one form or another.
Nothing for you to think about today cyberspacers, I'm too tired to apply thought to those ideas.
2 comments:
Maybe by setting mini goals for yourself you would be able to achieve a sense of calm and accomplishment, which would mitigate anxiety. Of course, giving up Facebook in the morning might help too:)
I'm personally never on facebook before school, it was my mom! I swear if she plays too much more we might need to have an intervention.
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