Sleep

I have issues with sleep. I have issues with the thought that there are only so many things you can do in one day, and a vast amount of other things you want to be able to do that I really shouldn't be able to do within that time period. I couldn't sleep last night. We have run out of the vitamin that I take to help me sleep and when we went to the store yesterday they didn't have it. I feel somehow due to this I can't sleep. I hate that, I don't want to have to rely on a sleep aid to be able to sleep all the way through the night. Somehow I have fallen into that world. It's really upsetting and makes me feel insanely pathetic. I have to rely on something other than myself to be able to get through simple every day functions. I'm seriously having problems with sleep. Last week I fell asleep on the bus resulting in having to walk several blocks back to my house. It was horrendously cold. I do not want to have to endure that experience again. It's odd though. For the majority of people I know, going into the dark room here makes them tired, but for myself, when I'm tired it's almost the best place for me to be. Something about being in that room energizes me and makes me get that fulfillment that I used to get in the past for some things, and rarely comes into my life anymore. I've already printed somewhere around at least 18 photos this quarter. The majority of my class has printed somewhere around half that, if not less.

On the subject of semi-schoolwork, in the sense that it's something I enjoy but it's also work for school, I discovered this weekend that I get more work done painting sitting on my living room floor watching movies for three hours painting than in the 5 hours of class during the week. Clueless and Accepted either have magical painting juju or I'm heavily distracted during school. I'm going to go with a combination of both, because I think Clueless has magical juju in general, watching it makes me feel better in some form, makes me feel a little more intelligent, and I'm somehow able to get a large number of kinds of homework done while I'm watching it. It's amazing for me.

Movies. I watch a lot of movies. This weekend my mother and I watched Pineapple Express. I was honestly disappointed with it. People had been talking about how great it was and in my opinion it kinda sucked. Seth Rogen is pretty good considering I do really like Superbad, but this is just stupid. I don't understand why so many people find this funny. There were a few short funny moments, and the concept of the movie was promising, but in reality it really just sucked.

As you can see my train of thought is rather scattered this morning. Jumping from sleep, to homework, to the world of movies. The connections are there for me, although they may not be as evident as they are in my own head. I think there is just a little too much going on in there right now to form any coherent venture. The thought is there, it's just fogged by the other things surfing through my head. Today, I leave you with the thought of misguided ideas, what trains are running through your mind that may seem to have no end? Or better yet, what trains are running through your mind so loud that you can't even think about reality?